That Woman

OMG.
I just had dinner with my dad and the woman-who-is-not-his-GF.
*headbangs*

Everything was going well. There was this awkward silence but things were normal.
UNTIL my dad started talking about his lunch appointment.
It started off okay and quite pleasant.
I was pretty interested too.

Turns out, dad has this friend whose wife committed suicide.
And this friend, read a book by a Hong Kong author who wrote about the loss of his OWN wife.
This friend was so moved by the book, he sent an email to the author saying he was touched by what he read, and would be delighted if they could speak more on the subject.
The author then decided TO FLY DOWN HERE JUST to meet my dad's friend.
My dad's friend then thought it would be a great idea to have my dad along.
All this is fine by me.

But my dad was talking about all this in the presence of that woman-who-is-not-his-GF.
!@#%$@!#%#@!%*$!%#@
For those who do not know why I am so freaked out by this, obviously do not know the history behind this woman-who-is-not-my-dad's-GF.
Like we are discussing my mum's death in front of this woman-who-is-not-my-dad's-GF-but-was-once-the-third-party-in-my-parents'-marriage!

I also feel really cheated. Like I don't have priority in my dad's life, and he treats me and this woman-who-is-not-his-GF like we are of equal status in his life. Like aren't these feelings more private than others?
And does he or doesn't he remember what happened in the past to my family?
Or am I mistaken that this is actually the same family that I once knew long ago?

I have thought it over already and I've unhappily decided it could be just ME and my stupid childish ideas.
Argh.
But am I wrong to feel this way?

- 23 June 8:45pm -